I dragged her inside the chamber, watching her chest beat up and down, slowly. It got slower each time I looked back at her. Her plain white tee shirt was covered in blood. My blood, their blood
and even worse, her blood. When I finally got her over my shoulder, the cold stillness ran through my body. A chill went down my spine, my eyes welled up.
He couldnt leave us be, could he Bells? And now look what his jealousy has done. All I wanted to do was hold her. Clutching her tighter to my chest, I ran up the dark stairwell. Theyll never get us here.
The stairs seemed almost endless. The weight of the world faded a moment ago, when her warm blood danced with that of mine, that was truly much hotter. I could hear her cry, plead, moan from the pain when they got a hold of her, yet now she was extraordinarily silent. It had me extremely concerned. My brain had froze. What does one bite do?
I remembered it all so vividly
I was holding her hand, in the same spot he had left her for dead a few years ago, we were taking, laughing. She went to kiss me, her lips grazed mine as they had done several times over the past few months. Eyes closed and completely unaware, I was at my ease. Then, out of what seemed like nowhere. Under the moonlight they attempted to rip me apart, she had fallen to the ground. Her hand slipped out of mine as she collapsed. One of them
Edward, he had to have gotten her. I heard her fight him off, I heard her scream. After all he had done to her, he just couldnt leave it be.
Rosalie, I think, and one other big one came after me. I tore them to shreds, but not before they got a hold of me. I had to get out of the way to get in werewolf form
I couldnt dare hurt Bella.
I just
there was no more controlling my anger. I love her, and they wanted her. She didnt want them, it was different this time. Edward messed things up. First, he left her, and then, he had the nerve to run off with a beautiful vampire that had came to Forks.
He broke her, I fixed her. This was the pattern.
I dont know what came over me. Now there were dead vampires in the woods. Her precious first love, the so called man of her dreams, was now decomposing, whatever was left of him. His beautiful, flawless face became so fragile under my claws. Ripped out, torn about
and left in the dirt. His eyes so full of rage, of hunger.
I rushed to Bellas side. But there was no use in consoling her. He had bit her neck, so cliché. I just picked her up and ran. Ran as fast as I could. And were here now.
At the top of where I was going, I laid her down on the bed by the wall. This was where I used to come and focus when I was young: The Lighthouse. I knelt beside the bed, taking her hand and pressing it to my lips.
Please, just stay with me.
I had no idea what to do. Could I suck out the venom? Or was it too late?
Would she wake up a demon?
I couldnt take it anymore. My head fell to her chest, my eyes exploded in tears. Clutching her hand, I could feel no pulse. I kept crying, against my wish. I felt her move, and my heart skipped a beat.
Bella
Bella? I asked, nervously, anxiously.
Jacob
She had whispered back, with all she had. She slowly opened her eyes.
Rest, rest, dont strain yourself.
It
burns so bad.
I know, I know, youll be ok.
No, Jacob, dont let me become a ..
Bella, dont talk such! Youre going to be fine. I looked up into her eyes through my tears. They were going to a very grey yellow.
Jacob
I love you.
I froze. Theres no way I can let this happen to her. Its too hard
she wont be living. But how can I do this to the only person I love?
I love you too, I love you with all my heart. I reached up and kissed her lips, which were cold as ice. Her vacant eyes had closed.
What if we just say here forever? Would anyone notice that we were gone, would anyone come looking for us? No, it wasnt that simple. It could no longer work now.
I crawled up beside her, I held her tight. She said nothing. She no longer breathed. She no longer lived. And I knew crying couldnt bring her back. I had tried so hard, but I couldnt save her from him. There was only one thing I could do now, I could save her.
I kissed her one last time.
With everything I had, I transformed into a werewolf. She didnt cry out, thought I knew I had hit her. I closed my eyes, I made it all go away. And then I sliced at her, until I knew there was nothing left.
And for my final move, my last action on this world, I ran to the corner to get the gun stashed in the shelf. Taking it rapidly in my hands, I brought it to my head, and there was nothing more.
I'm sad to say that my sub runs out Wednesday. I can't believe I've ran through a years sub already. Wow where has all the time gone? I'm not even going to bother with a new journal layout. I guess I better stick to what I do best: upload crap.
So blah. I guess I wanted to tell everyone I'm alive. I'm cooped up in the house because I'm on 3 different antibiotics and can't be out in the sun. Apparently my staph doesn't want to go away. I'm having to use a scrub and lysol EVERYTHING. Plus we have a pool and I can't be in it, I just get to clean it whenever the sun starts going down.
Summer has started, in case nobody knew that. For me, anyways. I've still got a lot of catching up to do.
The only thing I want right now is Will. Sometimes I guess I'm just helpless without him.
Anyways, I'm running most of my time on my laptop. Now that I have this wireless card and move at some pretty decent speeds, I'm not limited to my desktop. I'm actually LIKING vista so someone needs to come shoot me. And my desktop is now fucking up.
My FAVORITE BAND OF ALL TIME: HURT, is coming back to LITTLE ROCK on June 15th! OMG I can't wait. I saw Saving Abel and ZZ Top at Riverfest but I honestly can't WAIT TO SEE HURT.
Yet I have to wait another 16 days that sucks
So there's nothing left to say. Enjoy the pretty journal while it lasts.


























